Six Months

Written on facebook:

Baby girl you are officially 6 months old!!! It's crazy that it's already been 6 months since you came into our family and then gained your wings. Man, I wish I could go back and hold you one more time, kiss your little button nose, and stroke your cheek as I tell you how much I love you. Your big brother misses you so much. He loves talking about you, which breaks my heart and makes me proud at the same time!!!

Small Bump

Everytime I hear this song I cry and think of Amelia. The part in the song that gets me the most is when he sings, "you can wrap your fingers around my thumb and hold me tight". My sister took a picture of Amelia with her hand wrapped hand my thumb and I will always treasure that picture. I listen to this song often, but on the 12th of each month I always listen to it at 11:30pm

Christmas Time

Our son decided we needed a pink Christmas for Amelia. So we went online and he picked out pink ornaments, pink wrapping paper and silver garland. I'm so glad he wanted to do Christmas this year because in all honesty, I didn't care about putting the tree up.

Our First Big Family Holiday

Our first Thanksgiving without our baby girl. Wasn't sure how well I would get through it, but I did. Our son didn't want Amelia to be left out, so we brought her teddy bear with us. It sat on the mantle at my parents house the entire day.

Coming Home

Amelia came home today. We had her cremated and today we brought her home. We got this amazing urn that is a teddy bear. So we can hug her anytime we want to.

Our Final Goodbye & Discharge

At 9:55am, hubby and I made the decide to say our final goodbyes and let the hospital staff take her. The nurse we had took her in a different room and changed her into this beautiful pink dress with a white bonnet. This would be her final outfit. She looked like a little doll. I hated letting her go.

By 1:30pm, I was getting things together to go home. Leaving the hospital empty handed sucked. But knowing that my heart was filled with love helped. Coming home to an empty house with things the way they were when I left to be monitored sucked!!!

The Morning After

Its been a few hours since we said our goodbyes. The hospital set up a photographer from NILMDTS to come take pictures of Amelia. At this time we still hadn't told our son that she passed away. We weren't sure how he would take the news. Or even the right way to tell him. After the photographer was done, we spent a little time with my sister and brother in law, who were taking care of our son while we were in the hospital.

By the evening we had family come up and say their final goodbyes to Amelia as we were planning on giving her over to the hospital so the funeral home could come get her. Before everyone left we had our son in the room alone and told him what was going on. I would never wish for anyone to EVER have to tell their child this news!!! We all cried and hugged him as he now had to deal with losing his baby sister.